Let's Get Brainwashed.

I passed a billboard today that advertised new condos for sale. It said "Try a new lifestyle." Indeed.

I am afraid to slow down when walking in public. I have to keep moving. The farmers market I go to is down to 1/3 of its normal size. I wonder if it's because it's a new season. It doesn't feel different here. It's overcast, and that is why I am walking around. I've had a sun burn on my nose for the last couple of days. I know - just because it's overcast doesn't mean I am invincible.

All the buildings that are old and have rust stains down their backs and windows crusted shut are so beautiful. I wish I could spend more time outdoors. I saw a bike messenger roll up his pants leg so slowly and lovingly. It was quite sexy. That made me slow down.

I think about what it would be like to have a cool job or at least one that is satistfying. Like being a bike messenger. Would it help me? Or would it take away from all the creative energy I have outside of work? Everyone would like that balance. Am I not saying things that so many know? Is there a term when you know something but don't know how to act on it?

If I were a deer I'd jump into a swimming pool. Then I'd lick my coat dry and run up the freeway to the mountains. Then I'd look out at the horizon toward the beach, as far as the eye can see. But I wouldn't know what to do next. I never know what to do next.

(for you, UT.)


-- Mobile dispatch